As I've mentioned before, I'm looking to loose the 20 pounds I've put on in the last year. Progress is slow, as it is for most. I am an impatient individual. Needless to say, fact one and two are not complimenting each other well.
Week 2: 5 pounds down, 15 more to go. I was pretty happy with that. I'm into week three, and wont check my progress again until next week, but I'm hoping that I'll be down at least another 5 pounds (cross my fingers, hope to god).
I'm really trying to be calm about getting back to healthy. I've always struggled with my own perception of my physical self, so gaining 20 pounds isn't easy to swallow at all. In a nutshell, I wake up, look in the mirror, and see a 5'2" 300 pound individual. I know this isn't true, but it literally takes everything in me (often a good amount of tears, teeth clenching, head-in-hands meditation, ect) to convince myself that I'm not. I am doing by best to take things (painfully) slow. I am holding myself back from being to hard on my self and too strenuous on my body. I have gone as far as covering up the timer/calorie counter/pulse reader/mile tracker on my elliptical machine so I don't pressure myself to run a certain speed or a certain amount of time or until I burn "enough" calories. I only push myself as far as I can take it (which has been about 4.5 miles/40 minutes a day). I'm happy with it.
Ha- now on to the next 10 pounds! I could (but not really lol) take a short cut by quitting birth control- man, that would be an easy 10 pounds gone!!! But I'm pretty confident in my ability to keep this up. I'm excited to get up in the morning and work out (those of you who know me are probably in disbelief right now). Push it: eat well, small, and more often: keep calm and carry on.
I can do this. I think lol.
You are doing great! Give yourself time and don't over do it!